Sunday, June 24, 2012

And Now the Real Trouble and Recovery Begins

I'm up at 3:47am because I can't sleep. I can't sleep because my mind is not at ease.  With the end of my long term disability benefits from work, and having already been replaced in my job, of course my principle worry is money.  My taxes are a mess and my savings are nearly gone.

I don't know if I'll be able to receive unemployment benefits in addition to Social Security Disability.  I've read that it's possible, but I'm only just about to try for it.  That would really make the difference.

The good news is that my manager had done everything improperly, downright illegal, and now I find that I'm owed some money and support, and that my health insurance will not run out as soon as I thought.  But still, that doesn't save the day.

Do I take any job just to survive?  No.  And that's my advice for the day--or middle of the night.

When you're in this situation, it's somewhat of an opportunity. It's a clean break.  In my case I've felt I went off track when I took that first job in my current career.  I grew up and worked in Entertainment, and also worked in Higher Education and Educational Consulting before.  I came to the realization that I never disliked what I did for a living before, quite the contrary.  I took a series of jobs because the money was great, but I lost what I have to give to the world in the process.

I don't have kids or a mortgage.  I don't need a lot of money right now.  I just have to find that next opportunity that's a fit for who I am and what I have to contribute, and grow from there.


  1. You sound very wise. Hoping as one door closes, the window of opportunity opens!

    1. Thank you very much. One thing I've found at a level I really wasn't expecting is, people are a lot more friendly and willing to help than I could easily imagine. Friends have given me great advice and encouragement, and even helped me in very material ways that I didn't expect. This realization has been a great benefit to me.

      It's very important that you don't give in to negativity and sources of discouragement, and be open to letting people who want to help or encourage you.